Weeks and Months ahead

Limping.

Coughing.
Wheezing.

Retching.
Vomitting from too much coughing.

Throat bleeding from too much coughing.

My voice, threatening to go on strike, has become hoarse and raspy.

My head throbs from coughing.
My diaphragm hurts from coughing.
My shoulders ache from coughing.
All the muscles in my body are tense and aching from coughing.

I am sick of coughing!

I am losing my voice
And...
I am going back to teach.

Come September....I'll be going back to teach.

Now, I'm not looking forward to this September.

P is going to be away for two weeks....first Taiwan, then South Carolina.
I'm going to be "full-time" Mom AND Dad during those two weeks.

Come October, C is going to New York.

Me? Still stuck here in Singapore, as always. The furthest I have ventured within the last 10 years is to West Malaysia and Indonesia.

Those two have had opportunities to go to Italy, Switzerland, Japan, several parts of the States, Australia and China.

It's been 10 years. If not for the occasional short trips away to West Malaysia and Indonesia, I would probably never have left the shores of Singapore. I'm beginning to be tempted to feel deprived, and short-changed. Help me, I need to find mental and emotional equilibrium again.


Be gone, Spirit of Bitterness! You have no place in my heart! Your bitter roots will not have me entangled....I will not allow you! You don't belong in my heart! Go away!

Come, Spirit of Love. Fill my heart with love till it overflows. My heart belongs to Love.